Hello lovelies, it’s been soooo long since I’ve sat down and blogged. Sure I’ve started a few random posts but I’ve been avoiding saying or shall I say writing what I desperately need to get off of my chest. So here it goes.
Exactly 60 days ago I decided now was the best time to start fully living this event planning dream, no not the one where I work a 45 hour job a week and juggle all of the endless business stuff that I have to do. Lovelies let me tell you that’s not the dream, being so tired you can hardly think, juggling and I mean juggling your full time job and your part time dream job isn’t the dream. The dream is working for yourself everyday, crying a little, hell even struggling a little but knowing that you are in charge of your destiny…now that’s the dream. I can tell you a millions times that I struggled with the decision to leave my job, because I did, but I won’t. What I will tell you is the thought of MME becoming a distant or faded memory of a dream that could have been that should have been was so overwhelming heartbreaking that I couldn’t bare it, that’s what I want to share with you. That walking away from everything that is safe and secure feels uncomfortable. I felt scared and anxious all at the same time but for the first time I felt free and alive and no one told me in college that you couldn’t put a price on THAT feeling. But it gets better, everyday gets a little better and before you know it you can go to bed at 10pm or 11pm and worry a little less about what tomorrow will look like. Your week no longer looks like meltdown Monday’s, Tantrum Tuesday’s, What the hell am I doing Wednesday’s, Throwback to when I had a full time job Thursday’s, and Thank God I made it through the week Friday’s. Just breath, because it gets so so much better.
Life is different and in the best way possible. I wake up, leave my house and unlock the door to a beautiful shop in which I have a tiny nook to call home. A home for MME. I’m greeted by the sweet smiling friend who believed in me before I had fully convinced myself I could really do this. There are days when her smiling face remind me to just breath because it does get better. Whew, that’s everything I’ve wanted to say for 60 days but haven’t had the courage to put my feelings into actual words. I hope you’ll stay with me on this journey, there are so many things that are just lighting my heart on fire and I’m excited to share them with you.